I don’t know what was worse for my parents, to have their daughter go away to college and say, “I want to be an actor” or “I want to be a paranormal investigator”. Although, neither took them by surprise. I guess many people saw me going in this direction, as I was always the girl at the sleep over who brought the Ouija board and acted out elaborate ghost stories until my other friends, with frightful tears in their eyes, had to call their parents and ask to be picked up. That was me. As I was working on my degrees in Theatre and Integrative arts I spent many hours studying to be an investigator with PRS. I just always had a fascination with the paranormal. I don’t know what it was that jumpstarted my passion for this field, but I would say the fact that my parents kept buying haunted houses and moving our family into them had something to do with it. I guess I just really wanted answers to what I had experienced as a child. Not many of my friends would let me talk about my experiences or about the paranormal books I’ve read for fear that just hearing a story would attract some horribly mangled ghost to their bed side.
Season one was a whirlwind. We did about 19 investigations in a year. I fall in love with every single client, family, and case we work on, but my favorite would have to be “Pet Cemetery”. It was one of the most unnerving cases I have ever been on. The whole time we were on this Friday the 13th look alike property the feelings of something menacing watching over me was almost too much weight on my shoulders. Never in my life had I felt something so overbearing. We did an extremely hard job investigating, worked brilliantly as a team, had some experiences, and Serge and I actually had somewhat of an eye opening experience during that case. The facts we uncovered matched so well with the eye witness accounts, not to mention our own experiences there, got us excited and full of wonderment. I had one of my most unusual interviews there while I was talking with the little girl who used to live in the house. It was extremely hard to understand what she was saying and all I could make out was her little voice saying “I want to die, I don’t want to die, I want to die”. If you watch my face during the interview in this episode it pretty much sums up my thoughts…”what the…” We often joke about this time, Ryan does a lovely impersonation of me if I do say so myself.
Heather and I got to handle our own case with Beer Wine and Spirits. It was the 6th case we had been on with PRS and I will never forget the moment when Ryan told us that “this is your investigation girls”. We just kind of stood there with blank slates. I honestly had no idea what he was talking about. When it finally sunk in I don’t know how I didn’t see this coming. The night before in our hotel room Eilfie kept asking me if I had read my PRS handbook, “Did you bring it with you?” “You might want to review that again” Since it was around 1am when she was asking these questions, I found it odd, but really put no merit to it. I was wrong. I loved doing this case. Don’t get me wrong, I made a lot of rookie mistakes, but in the end I really felt like Heather and I stepped up and that it was the first time our potential was seen. It was the first time I felt like I was part of the team. My interview with Brian was probably one of the toughest I have ever had just because it was my first time sitting down with a client without Ryan. I forgot a lot of key points and I don’t think I did a very good job at making Brian feel comfortable. It was all a learning experience and I‘m actually really proud of myself and Heather for this investigation. I definitely wouldn’t turn down another opportunity like this.
I’ve noticed there’s this huge misconception that people have regarding our investigations. People think we show up to film an episode and then go home having lavish vacations and days off pool side sipping out of a diamond encrusted martini glass. That’s what TV life is like, right? Couldn’t be farther from the truth. The team and I work extremely hard on these cases. We find them or they’re brought to us by a producer from our show, we do 3-4 interviews with the main clients and eye witnesses, historical research is done, new tech is built, and new experiments are researched before we even step foot on the property. When we get back from a case it’s post investigation time. This means we go over any other evidence we have and compile a report about the investigation. It’s hours of work. We put our hearts into every aspect of it. What people see on TV is only a snapshot of what we actually do. It’s also just a fragment of who we are as people, we actually do have personalities and know how to smile. People are always so surprised to learn that when they meet us in person.
I work with death everyday in this field and it has certainly influenced my life in every way. From the way I value a day to my songwriting, which has increasingly become about angels, demons, and losing someone you love. Not exactly pop music. I’ve seen a lot of changes in myself over the past three years of actively working with PRS. I’ve grown up a lot by taking on more responsibility, I’ve become less afraid of things I don’t understand, I’ve gained an interest in psychology and actually underwent training to become a volunteer crisis counselor.
I’ve also noticed my views of the paranormal have changed. I used to be afraid of death, but now I believe it’s just the next stage of life. I used to think that a ghost was strictly someone who had died in a house and couldn’t move on. Now, I believe the word ghost can’t do any justice to the possibility of what it could mean. A ghost could be someone who was once living, it could be someone from another dimension, it could be some intelligent force that attaches itself to human life, or maybe we are just coming in contact with different moments of time and we are seen as ghosts to the transparent figures we scream at and run from with flailing arms. All of it could be in our minds. It could be a combination of things, it could be something we haven‘t even thought of, and it might just be nothing at all. We don’t know. It’s all theory. There’s so much left to be discovered. That’s what I find exciting about this field. This is where my passion comes from.
Sometimes when I look back at the work I’ve done with my incredible friends, who have become more like brothers and sisters to me in PRS, I often wonder where I would be or what I would be doing if my parents never bought that first haunted house on a quiet one way street. Although they didn’t know it at the time, buying that house would completely shape my life.